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Anxious.exe Magazine 1998.

1. In connection with experiencing sexual ecstasy there's a theory saying that different states of mind cultivated also by the magic experimentators are liberating.
In this case what do perverse practices give you on the field of transcendental feeling of pleasure?

Perverse is a subjective conception.
Perverted suggests corrupt and distorted and I do not perceive any of the sexual practices in which I am engaged as either distorted or corrupt, merely unconfined and conceivably liberated.

These practices, although supposedly unaccustomed, do however impart me with a similar emotional response of transcendental impressions as practices of a supposedly accustomed nature, but however more intense, developed and noncompulsory, as an unconstrained and deliberate extension, not an undivided alternative to supposedly conventional sexual practices.

2. Perversion is perceived within societies as a dangerous aberration from the moral norms.
How do you think, why is there such a solid limit created by people, which in fact can be only a gateway to something higher for others?
And do you know such door, which you wouldn't have ever opened?

It is naturally convenient not to open any auxiliary and sexually emancipating doors, but rather safely retain the gateways closed and tightly secured, and therewith remain unenlightened at the hand of salving innocence and alleviating unawareness.

Opening doors could certainly interject gratification, but likewise give birth to frustration by means of fetishism and transcendental encountering, and therewith originate a conscience of consecutive deficiency, in the continuing event of not regularly being exposed to the foregoing amplitude of intensity.
I have however not yet encountered any doors that should have remained closed.

3. For sure you've been getting a lot of questions about sadomasochism, but we are interested in auto-eroticism more.... Are these two matters correlative in your opinion and are they equally important? Total sensual independence....?

I think auto-eroticism is commendable.
Can you truly love and spawn love onto anyone else unless you are intrinsically capable of loving yourself?

I do believe the two sources are of equivalent importance as sources of sexual gratification; but sadomasochism does however not impart any particular extent of sensual independence to the very extent that masturbation does; rather the opposite.
Sadomasochism is not an individual exercise to the extent that auto-eroticism is correlative.
But the two individual sources are nevertheless akin and possible to correlate.

4. By presenting Satanism as light, love and vitality in opposition to the generally conceived vision of 'evil and gloomy Satanism' don't you create another limits etiquettes for this philosophy?

It is conceivable that the perimeters of preference are extending as a consequence of the synonyms that I impart with reference to Satanism; light, love & vitality, as opposed to dark, hate & death.
But however it is essential to realize that the repercussions I conceivably accomplish by virtue of this activity are merely petite.
We merely sell an almost insignificant number of records supposing that any instant, evident and compelling effect should be accomplished; and to factually accomplish any noticeable effect, it would be required that sales and attention pertaining to Ordo Equilibrio altogether were more comprehensive.

But not to sound entirely discouraged I suppose that the consequences that we suggest could transpire gradually, and consequently create a more persisting and altogether rewarding resolution.

The satanic establishment itself however, aside from any legion of self-acclaimed black metal associated teenage Satanists, is already seemingly familiar with the affiliated synonyms, and consequently I believe the etiquette won't transform that very vastly.

5. Nowadays it's impossible for human being to be fully independent.
How to reconcile the compulsion of social existence with the individual spiritual aspirations?

As you say it is evidently impossible to completely revoke one's sociological participation and entirely recall one's bequeathed commitments to the collective organism of society, despite the extent of ones factual aspirations of doing so.
Society demands your participation, and solely in the event that society determines that you are no longer a profitable constituent of the collective organism, you are consecutively alienated.
But however at which very instant you are most likely incapable of factually being able to adequately resolve the aspiration of revoking your participation.

The contemporary options to any form of sociological engagement are to all appearances just visionary, and merely possible to effectuate partially, relative to the extent of one's factual aspirations of doing so.
And every being is solely capable of individually determining for him or herself to which extent he or she is willing to abolish his/her participation, and by which means he or she is predisposed and capable of doing so.

6. Don't you have an impression that Satanism, in the way it's being understood by you, can simply become the next instrument in church's hands?
At last there will always be some revolted individuals, who just must be allowed to rebel - there must be someone branded and cursed in the prudish society and so are the Satanists....

I find it difficult to imagine that Satanism, despite the way it is being aesthetically and symbolically portrayed by me, would appeal to the Christian church as an instrument of attracting additional believers.

Despite any hypothetically conceivable situation that the Christian establishment would take the advantage to recognize and substantiate any eventual and consecutive resemblance of my synonymous yet inverse symbolism; the philosophical and spiritual establishment of Satanism is ultimately too mundane, too carnal, too realistic and too individually converged to extensively and genuinely apply to them as an operative instrument.

It is more conceivable by virtue of the symbolism and the aesthetics that are emphasized throughout Ordo Equilibrio, that the Christian establishment will fail to recognize the significance of what moral liberation is factually being advocated.

7. 'The Triumph of Light....' is filled with illustrations of Christ without head. What does it symbolize? Is it the symbol of imperfection and defect of Christ's mission or maybe a total negation of his person?

There are two potential motives for the illustrations of the decapitated Christ figures throughout the booklet of 'The Triumph of Light....'.
Either, and provided that you completely lack a sense of humor, they may be recognized as tokens relative to the faith's factual ignorance; or optionally as what they are intended to signify, my sincere conviction that Christ certainly could use some head.

8. Could the catholic saints in distant times have really some kind of huge force, some channels of cosmic energy, which could be used in material world?
Or were they - just like today - artificially created by church cardinals to make moral models for the masses?

I suppose that individually deliberate and/or instinctive canalization of cosmic energy may been the catalyst to individual sainthood, but I doubt that this was the factual condition but in particular and sole incidents.

In the event that deliberate and/or instinctive canalization would have been the factual incentive for sainthood, the quantity of saints would consequently be much larger.
But as merely adherents to the Catholic Church were rewarded sainthood, sainthood is merely a fabricated reward of righteously upholding faith and devoted praise.
And consequently I believe the designated saints were merely assigned sainthood by the Catholic Church as to state an example of what could be the impending merit for righteous and exemplary devoted believers; but likewise in attempt to constitute role models for the citizens of the Catholic establishment.

9. Ordo Equilibrio - what is the idea behind this name? How do you understand the balance of universal forces and do you agree with Heraclean thesis about harmony of opposites, which fight each other but at the same time complete?

Ordo Equilibrio signifies the 'Order of Balance', a conjecture which is invariably portrayed throughout the aesthetic establishment of the constellation; affiliated to my individual comprehension of balance as an actuality as well as a deception.

There is certainly the harmony of opposites; balance established by virtue of the fray itself. Friction creating advancement, two making one, one completing the whole.

10. Fire, Air, Water and Earth - which of these elements has dominated Ordo Equilibrio? Which of them is closest to you personally and why?

Fire is an intimate element; particularly and symbolically as lebensfeuer (the fire of life), the flaming fires of love and hate, the fervent pyres of passion, lust & devotion, fire as an element of heat & light but likewise of fierce destruction.

I take pleasure from fire by various reasons, but I do elementary enjoy the crackling sound of incineration alongside the fervent vision of fiery tongues licking the contours of flaming pyres; avariciously reaching higher and higher; but finally to descend, and ultimately extinguish.

11. Alcohol is drawing the worst demons and magic larva on man.... In this case can alcohol be some kind of motive power for the artist - many of sick individuals have blessed absinthe....

Alcohol according to my experience is not necessarily a particularly creative substance.
It may certainly assist specific people in conquering situations of evident modesty, but likewise assist in the involuntary wreckage of seemingly thriving relationships.

Absinthe however, despite its distilled nature and irrefutable content of alcohol, is more willingly revered by virtue of its hallucinatory capabilities rather than its alcoholic.
And which consequently makes people deem and revere it as a narcotic and not necessarily an alcoholic substance.

12. Do drugs allow you to see the invisible, widen the horizons of perception and other nature of the world, or are they just stimulating the creation of artificial (and less valuable) visions?

Drugs can be used or abused; and in the event of being utilized, correlated for a variety of gratifying purposes, physical and/or psychological.

I do not exclusively utilize drugs to make me distinguish the invisible and expand the horizons of my surroundings, but likewise as an incentive of amusement, pleasure and contemplation, consecutively procuring a durable impression of comprehension and creativity.
Intellectually to acquire an extended sense of comprehension, but likewise sexually to procure a more elevated sensation of delight.
And therewith progress beyond the customary sense of comprehension, and consequently transcend to another condition of consciousness.

13. In your music some further influences of such British bands like Coil, Nurse with Wound, Current 93 or Psychic TV can be noticed....
Where else can we search for your roots?

The foundation of your factual incentive is a puzzling subject to ascertain.
All music you listen to tends prone to provoke the aspiration of your creative operations, voluntarily or involuntarily, but altogether I enjoy listening to various music comprised as part of the very same scene that we are associated to ourselves.
Various bands maintained by friends and acquaintances throughout CMI as well as World Serpent, but likewise an assorted selection of music from the 50's & the 60's, alongside a particular assortment of Country & Western.

14. OK, thanks for your verbal transmission. The last scream of ecstasy is yours....

Realize yourself.

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